Discipline is defined as a code of behavior. Some days I have it and other days I do not have it. At all. To be honest, my latest goal is to become more disciplined on a regular basis. To have a schedule of sorts. Recently my full-time job was eliminated due to Covid and I’ve been #floundering regarding discipline. I have many irons in the fire and need to have more discipline to accomplish all that I want to accomplish. I’m great with discipline when it comes to exercise and eating habits. Beyond that, not so much. In fact, I can be quite the procrastinator.
Because I’m such a #procrastinator, I go through all my emails before embarking on the real reason I opened my laptop. It’s as if someone is poking me on the shoulder whispering, “go look and see if something important is in there”. As soon as I’m done checking my two separate emails, LinkedIn, and Poshmark it’s time to recheck Instagram and Facebook although I checked both on my phone prior to opening my laptop, but hey, it’s been a whole 30 minutes since then, so I had better check again “just in case”.
JUST IN CASE OF WHAT? What could possibly happen in the 30 minutes since the last time I checked that will turn out to be life-changing? If I were being offered the job of a lifetime on LinkedIn, undoubtedly the hiring recruiter doesn’t expect a reply immediately. If I sold something on Poshmark, I would find out…soon! And what, pray tell, could happen on Instagram or Facebook that cannot wait, period? Although I do have to admit to finding out about my brother’s passing on Facebook years ago. We hadn’t spoken in over 20 years and my parents, God Bless them, were waiting until I was out of work to tell me the news. You know, East Coast/West Coast timing. What are the chances of that ever happening again? It’s like lightening striking twice.
Now, if I were to receive a phone call or text on my cell from one of my agents, I may trip over myself to get to the phone because they rarely call or text, and if they do, it’s usually because I didn’t answer the email they sent 30 minutes ago. #BINGO. There’s my answer. I’m in a constant state of anticipation. While that may sound #positive, I’m not sure it is a good thing. It’s seems like a nice way of saying I’m in a constant state of anxiety. I don’t want that. I want to be in peace. I want to enjoy this new chapter in my life that is the most #rewarding since when I was raising my children.
Can I obtain peace and discipline at the same time? Does one come before the other? I don’t think so. I think by finding #peace #discipline will come more easily. Since I began studying the Bible, I can honestly say I am more peaceful but obviously I’m not quite where I need to be. Just blogging about this has given me a bit of peace because it’s like journaling. I’ve worked it out in my mind. I must learn to trust in God much more than I have been to get rid of my #stateofanticipation. Prayer always brings me peace so why do I forget it's my #goto?
We all have heard so much about social media lately and how unhealthy it is for us; it disturbs our peace of mind and I am certainly a perfect example of that. If you haven’t watched #thesocialdilemma I’d give it a go. It’s remarkably interesting, for sure. There’s a balance to everything we do and balancing social media and our daily life is what we should be doing anyway, right? Like my mother always said, there’s a time and a place for everything. Oh crap, now I’m quoting my mother. I’m becoming my mother! I’ve become my mother! Ugh, that’s for another blog. Let me know your thoughts on peace and discipline.